Through the Looking Glass

About Me

Brent. Thinker, philosophizer, artist, writer, intellectual, coffee fiend, reader, time lord

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1. 5 Years Later

   Lately I’ve been in what some might call “the writing mood”. Inspiration has suddenly fallen from the sky and into my sights. Recently a lady came into my midst and things have been progressing. It’s been a few odd weeks since we’ve began talking but our story, if we shall date, should be one of the cutest ever! It would appear, back in high school, the two of us had been elected shyest boy and girl. Just about 5 years down the line, who could have suspected we were both totally into each other! The time I spend with her on the weekends is quite enjoyable. She isn’t the type of girl I have to spend loads of money on to impress, score! We’re both content sitting on her love seat, cuddling and watching movies. The first night we had some wine, which is always romantic. We spent much of that night/morning talking. Again, who could have thought two unimaginably shy people would hit it off so well. Our second date was catching her up on the Game of Thrones series which I totally turned her onto. Now I just need to ease Doctor Who into her life! And last night, our third date, we watched the latest episode of GoT along with my favorite movie, A Love Song for Bobby Long. She remarked how it looked familiar. (I had finally met someone who understands me and has seen this movie…YES!!!!) I also made her some dinner when I got to her apartment. She totally loved it! (Or so she said, to avoid crushing my dreams of being a gourmet cook/boyfriend haha)

2. J.E.D.

   Happy birthday lemmy, I’ll never forget

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   Rock, Paper, Scissors, Lizard, Spock

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4. All systems are a go

   Today, I’ve received a partial confirmation from the university, supporting my proposal to intern with my employer and work in our laboratory running analyzers. Stoked! I’ll get clinical experience long before I can even imagine getting a degree. The director of the GenEd department simply wants me to submit a 2-3 page narrative, elaborating on the type of work I will be partaking in, and my employer need only know what to expect as far as how long my internship should last and what they can do to help further my education and career. Quite the con I’ve worked up! Between the goings back and forth between work and the university, this shall come along quite nicely. The details of such are incredibly more dubious than all of this, but I anticipate an amazing opportunity abound.

   I’ve always been postulating some new ideas pertaining to some new ink. Ideas are flowing and the creative juices are higher than ever. School is becoming a demand between the homework and my commitment to working with my employer but the rewards are my only focus. I quite enjoy the correlation between my class work and the reagents I work with on a daily basis pertaining to the molecular level of proteins, blood work, and chemical compounds. 

5. I didn’t get the license plate of that truck

   Las Vegas, Blue Fin, Alaskan, and Caterpillar spring rolls. Yesterday evening I shared some delectable sushi with a very old friend whom I haven’t seen since we both attended a mutual friends wedding. Thankfully she was there as I had no interest in my date, whatsoever, and we spent the night there enjoying the immaturity of gossip as we dogged on he relatedness to a bug. The food last night was quite enjoyable as was the company. It was nice to catch up. After dinner, I met some other long lost friends and shared the evening getting rowdy while playing drinking games. We put the games on hiatus and hit the bar around midnight. I’m not too keen on the bar scene myself, especially for the search of the ladies but I accompanied my friends as two of their significant others were already in attendance there. We then all rendezvoused back at my friends house where we spent the remainder of the night drinking some more. This morning I awoke to another old friend, a hangover. It had been quite some time since I had actually drank with the intention of having a good time and getting handsomely intoxicated. The remainder of my day was spent doing a bit of homework, although I didn’t get much accomplished. The NHL all star skills competition is now coming to a close and tomorrow will be spent watching the all star game with the intention of finishing my remaining homework. I find myself slipping back into old, bad habits of procrastinating. I need to work on that.

   Until next time, farewell! 

6. Pull the trigger and the nightmare stops

   “Call every girl we ever met, Maria, but I only love Virginia’s heart.” 

   Lately, I’ve been thinking an awful lot about you, more often than not. Last night, one of the most vivid dreams came to me in my slumbers. It was more vibrant and surreal than any previous dream prior. These incessant, yet sporadic, dreams/memories have always brought out my emotions. More recently things have been out of control. It may be due to the stress this semester is tolling on me. Work and school pretty much consume my life, while my consciousness is concentrated on the bigger picture and the intermittent nostalgia plaguing my soul. It’s been roughly 4 years or so since the Labour Day Heartbreak and still I haven’t found my escape from this hole. Most people don’t know exactly where they’ve gone wrong but for me I know exactly where my life plummeted over the edge and I could tell you my flaws, however idiosyncratic they may be. Sure it’s the little things that really add to our personalities but since my descent, these idiosyncrasies have brought out some of the worst in me. My health is definitely a major concern to both myself and those around me that claim to care about me but I’m too ignorant and stubborn to make the change or even see a doctor about anything. Back when I first enrolled in college, after high school, things were going smoothly. My first semester was more a “getting a feel of things” and the following winter I really buckled down where I needed to and things were as near perfect as perfect gets. However, the following year, the autumn of the heartbreak, things took their turn for what is my life now. Alcohol, cigarettes, uncontrollable amounts of caffeine, bad decisions, theft, probation, self-inflicted injury…just to name a few. I am somewhat starting to make better decisions and turning my life around but there is still this cloud in my heart, swelling into more of a torrential tropical storm bound to devastate anything in it’s path. Everywhere I look, I see small pieces of you in the world and more particularly in other ladies. Whether it be your eyes, your smile, or just innocent actions known to me from our time together. I someday hope we could reunite and start again but in my head I know it will probably never be. My heart and mind are constantly waging an unending war where the only casualty in each battle is me. I honestly don’t know what to do as far as the dating world goes anymore. Perhaps I’m better off just living my life as is and finding happiness in that itself, allowing any extra happiness to find it’s own way towards me. Alas, the heart and mind confusing me. I’m sure this will go on for an unforeseeable amount of time hereafter, but in the end I know the path I need to stay on. Straying and wandering leads me only into the wilderness with danger imminent behind every corner, whereas the path is the safer route. I’m starting to become unaware of my thoughts and rant and I really need to get back to my stress and homework. Farewell!

7. Why Alice in Wonderland

   To me, it’s not just about the brilliant colours, the utterly creative and ridiculous imagery, or even the wonder of such an ideal land, rather it’s the mere thought that such a place of whimsy could possibly exist. In my experience over the past year, the number one question I hear is, “Why Alice in Wonderland?” Typically, I answer with the mundane response of, “As a child, I always found awe in the book and would reread it once a year or so.” This of course is a false pretense, and my way of just blowing off the questioner with a belittled, aloof response. In all honesty, I chose to get Alice in Wonderland tattooed upon myself because it’s a reminder to myself that the absurd far supersedes the drama and undying boredom of the real world. Throughout my life I’ve been constantly searching for an identity, a voice, and an escape from the mundane. Currently I am working 40 hours a week and going to school for about 20 or so. Prior to this, I was only working and I came to the realization I couldn’t take it much longer so I decided to get my shit together once and for all and I enrolled in some higher education to get out of this dead end life, and start a career. I’m now finding myself stuck in the same bind, with little to no time to myself anymore. This is all fine and well because truly nothing in life worth having comes easy, and I can attest, this is going to be one of the hardest fought battles of my young life. There have been other traumatic incidents leading up to this point that were tough but I’ve learned to not think of them as often. Sure, I’m not completely over them and probably never will be. However, these are the events that have lead me to where I stand today and make me who I am and what I stand for so I will hold them close for they are the most troubling but dearest things to my heart. Getting back to Alice in Wonderland, it’s for these past incidents which have made me get a permanent marking of a fantasy on my arm. Sure it was a perfect escape for Alice. Any escape will take us away from the horrors of reality but it’s these horrors that really make life interesting and bring us back. As for Alice, the same goes for me. Even in a “wonderland”, there are still those things in reality that we each crave and desire that draw us back. For now, my escapes come in small doses of watching a movie, a tv show, or even losing myself and the world in a brilliant book. These are the little things in life, while giving me an escape, that bring me back to reality and lead me to each new day. It’s with open hands that I welcome the sunrise and live life to what I believe to be the fullest to continually write and live my own story. The drive keeps me going, and my actions keep the pen writing. (Figuratively speaking of course.) Nobody is actually writing my story, but in my own head, every journey or action I choose to do leads me towards a new direction. For a while there, the captain was drunk at the wheel but I like to think we have our heading now and although it won’t be the smoothest of sailings, the unknown waters are a welcome sight in comparison to the raging storm behind me. We can live and die doing what we love, or we can live on our knees and be so unfulfilled. Me, well I’m doing great making all the wrong decisions for now because one day I’ll have eliminated all other answers to 2+2, and know that the answer must be 4. For now, I think I’ll try my luck with 29!

   Carpe Diem  

8. A1c say what????

   So far this semester is overwhelming, as expected. Why did I take so much time off? YANG YANG!!!! Anyways, I knew to expect nothing less. Classes aren’t actually that terribly hard. From the homework given thus far, I’ve done quite well on it, contrary to what my expectations were. Even though I feel lost in Biology too with all it’s fancy terminology, I’m retaining a lot of useful information and much of this info is really interesting and fulfilling as well. For instance, I’m learning what the ‘in vitro’ reagents I formulate everyday are actually used for as far as analyzers. i.e. Hemoglobin is a protein found in the blood that is used as a transport for O2 (oxygen gas). LDL can be found in our livers, and those with bad LDL receptors are more prone to Cholesterol building up in our arteries leading to more cardiovascular problems. This is some interesting shit to me, it relates to what I do for a living, and most importantly it’s my foundation towards pathology and what I want to do with the rest of my working days. I’m pretty stoked with my learning so far and I await the knowledge to come. I know, I’m a nerd…but I’m quite satisfied with that!

9. Ferme

   For me, mornings are by far the hardest temptation. If I can muster enough will power to conquer morning cravings, the rest of the day seems to be easier in past attempts. There have been the triggers to restart but these are trivial things in comparison to the onset of each beginning to every day.

10. Dick Brick

    The ball has begun on this new semester, and my expectations were exceeded. I’m very happy with my first class, although some stress did come about but I anticipated this. I’m eager to get started on my other classes and hope to find them just as enjoyable. However, I truly wish I had done this whole college experience sooner but alas, it’s the way things go. I look forward to the spirals that come with the UG experience and the makings toward my graduate work, but we’ll take this slow for now.